Thursday, January 21, 2010

JOB

Placement season is here... and its chaos all around. I never considered myself to be a person who would run around looking for jobs that I have really no interest in doing. But its weird how things turn out, how perspectives change, but its natural I guess. Everyone needs a job. I never thought I would even consider doing something I know I will not like. But as the situation arises, I am. And this makes me feel gloomy and sad. I am a geek. I love electronics, I love how electrons and holes constitute current flow in a MOS. I love how a chip so small can have millions of transistors. I love transistor level simulation. I love how Faraday's law gave us Induction motors, and other machines. I love how the world now is dependent on 0's and 1's. I love how you can hold a signal and prevent it from going any further when you don't want it to. I love electronics and electrical engineering. At the verge of completing my engineering I do not wish to do anything but electronics. And the sad part about all of this is ,everything I wish to do is idealistic. But that is what I want to do. I do not want to compromise. I know I am being a stubborn, but that's who I am. I see no point in earning 7 figures if I don't like my job. In a period of 6 months I have got a faint hint of what it is to not like your work. I don't like to sit idle. The past 6 months of sitting idle has been enough. I love my internship now. If it were not for the scarcity of transportation to my home I don't think I would leave my office until dinner. I have got a taste of both, and though a bit short on other fancy services, I love my work now. I actually get to sit and think, rather than running a code, and compiling results. My mom tells me she thinks I will do good in any career path I choose. But, then again she is my mother she is supposed to say this. I am not sure I would even want to do good at some place I do not like to work. I have seen may people give up on their dreams and I am not saying that it is wrong but it shouldn't be the case. People should be allowed to dream and accomplish them and not looked down upon if their dream is not a "safe" choice. I don't like this rat race at all. I mean most of the people don't but they ( including me) become a part of this race either knowingly or unknowingly. The world is full of injustice and one doesn't realize it unless it happens to you. I am just putting random thoughts into this post which I know will not make any sense at all when it is complete. But frankly I don't care. I just wanted to write something. Anything. ...
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