Sunday, August 1, 2010

Pros and Cons ....

It's that point in life again. I have been feeling that I am constantly on move. Every time I get settled and feel at home at some place, its time to pack things up and start life afresh. I have not yet decided whether doing so is good or bad. Five years ago I made such a move and I will swear on anything that it was one of the best decisions of my life. Five wonderful years.. I don't regret any of it. I have learnt so much academically and otherwise. Now I have left Goa since the last one year, but the attraction to it still remains. Not because its a hip place to be in or something but because it was my home for four years. Despite being extremely attached to my family I stayed there and except for the initial bout of home-sickness, I don't think I have ever wished to leave it. Well, the above statement is just an exaggeration. I have wished to leave it atleast a thousand times, when I got bad marks, when I fought with friends, when I got sick... But I realize now all this made that place special. I mean if it were all happy memories there, probably it would not have left such a mark in my heart.

Now five years later, I begin another journey. This time its huge... huger than huge.. Its not a place which is just a phone call away from my come. The feeling somehow is a bit different. Its a feeling of excitement mixed with anxiety. Excitement about all the new things I am going to learn and experience and fear of the unknown, of going to a strange land. So, many rules which seem absurd.. so many things to be taken care of. It's not like if you screw up it will be okay... because I know it will be not. But, at the same time I know a little bit of caution and the experience I gain out of it, it will be priceless. Knowing all the pros and cons.. I can only hope that this decision comes out to be another good one.