Friendships...

Phoebe once said to Ross ' Who cares even if I am wrong just be a friend and be supportive.' Friendship had a different meaning for me when I was in school and it completely changed as I am on the verge of passing out of college. Either this new definition is more accurate or the old one was I dont know but I kind of liked the older one. I just dont know why... People often ask me to stop expecting but why?? why should I expecting??? I dont expect things to be done for me out of the way I just dont want things to be done differently for me... i.e. bad differently... Anyways lets just forget the comparisons... I just wanna recollect those sweet fond memories of friendships in my school, my coaching... who have stood the test of time... We hardly call each other or see each other probably once every 6 months when I come home from college... but still thinking about them fills my heart with such warm feelings... we might not remember each other when we are happy but the moment one is in some kind of trouble I am sure one call no matter where we are is all that it takes to bring the smile which would have been otherwise elusive. And thats what makes me cherish these friendships.... these friends remind me of my childhood of all the innocence all the dreams , all the silly li'l games we used to play... In short it makes me happy.... and as one grows there is quite a shortage of things to feel happy for... A very dear friend once told me and I quote, "Hapiness is not a feeling , it is an attitude to live your life." I neither agree nor disagree with him just that when we are young we adopt this attitude towards everything and as we grow somewhere it just vanishes. Maybe this is the way it should be without expectations but how do one completely gets rid of it.....

AAAaaarrrggghhh!!!!!!!!!!!!

'when someone pretends to believe something that they do not really believe or that is the opposite of what they do or say at another time' the cambridge dictionary defines hypocrisy as stated above... word to word.. and its the top of my HATE list... needless to say this kind of increases the number of persons I hate un this world leading me to forgive such kind of persons but I never forget.. and despite taking all precautions not to entrust these kind of persons ever again somehow one does fall into the trap only to be betrayed again and again...and which just leaves u fuming but I have promised myself not to yell at anyone just be calm maybe write a blog or diary about and not speak for sometime but not to yell seeing how fruitless it can be.... I just dont understand how ungrateful people can be how very ungrateful....I am just writing this to vent out my anger and nothing else because i promised myself not to yell... and considering what a spitfire I am You can expect lots and lots of these kind of blogs... so this post is just a way to vent out my anger... So where was I yes... ungratefulness.... combined by Hypocrisy this makes a lethal combination and needless to say I have found loads of such kind of persons...loads of them I dont know whether People really belong to this category or that i abide too much by the literal definition of these words... Whatever it is...I HATE such people who always expect never ready to give nothing in return.. Is it really true that having ceratin principles and abiding by them no much how much inconvenience it causes to one is a thing of the past now??? then Why does it does not make one feel good ??? why does when caring and considerate feelings not reciprocated does one feel bad and neglected??? why do people lie outright to your face when you know they are lying and still not be shameful about it ... rather defend what they are saying...??? well... please anyone who knows answers do post them ... beacuse i neither have the patience nor the will anymore to find them out myself.....